Today I made a list for my mission trip and began to really sit upon my spirit how real this trip is and how soon it is coming up. And my main focus is not just this trip but all of the other life changes going on too. I have changes on the inside and outside I must make and maintain until, during and after the trip to Uganda. In the last almost tow year, I have grown so much and have so much more growing to do. But God is such a patient, loving, gracious and inspiring God.

 

Who waits on me especially on the days where I am not as gunho about my calling as I should. He waits for me to turn back to Him on those days I don’t make the best decisions. He waits for me in the moments I may let my emotions, or the lack of some hinder my ability to love Him and His people the way they need to be loved.

 

And often times lately it has hurt me to know how long God waited for me, and to know sometimes in some ways I am still keeping Him waiting and I don’t want to, but I know I have no choice I am not perfect, I am human, I am a woman, perfectly flawed and all.

 

And so today, I have come into a repentive spirit because , in order for me to grow to become so bright   I blind the enemy I have to empty me of anything that resembles the enemy and hinders me from being fully committed to God. So today I have come before the throne and asked for a cleanse, beloved and I pray you come before Him too. It is painful sometimes to ask. Tedious even redundant to ask. But oh, so necessary, especially for someone like me a missionary who is about to emark on so many unknowns and what ifs, and needs to know I am underneath my Lords covering and safety and love and grace and mighty and His alone.

 

And a mission is not only for trips away, we all have missions right here at home. So, I ask you,

 

Who’s covering are you under? Who is your safety? Who do you draw strength from daily?

The answers are not for me to know but to start a conversation with God on where He stands in your life, and where you stand in His will….so beloved

 

Are you in the center of Gods perfect WILL or on His WAITLIST?

 

Be Blessed

Diana M Jordan ♥