The girl who lost everything (Psalm)
By Dayanah Ahmawanah 🖤

When I come around my family
They stare at me
They judge me
They say , look at what you’ve lost
Don’t you want more in this life
Because they see I walk in the commandments day and night,
I tell them what you don’t know , is
I want more than happiness
in this temporary life
I want joy and peace in eternal life
I want more than a husband ,
I want someone I can submit to
I want more than a career ,
I want a purpose
I want more than children ,
I want legacies
Little kings and queens
I want more than religion ,
Always in the spirit of repentence
Always reflecting
I want more than a temporary gain
I want an eternal supply
Of wisdom
And understanding ,
I have no shame
Even with no pennies to my name
I have no shame ,
That I spent the last few years just in chase
Of the Most High God
Oh
They say look at what you lost
I didn’t lose a thing ,
I let it go, any dream , any plan
Outside of my Father’s will
I let it go,
Any person, any thing
that hindered me
I let them go , I let it go
I didn’t lose anything I had
I dropped it with my own two hands
So I could grab my cross
So I could with a smile…
lift my burden
And I have never felt so free
Than when I began walking in the Commandments
I have never felt so whole
Than when I began
to desire the law
And I have no regrets
I will choose
The Most High
Ahayah , Yashaya
Over and over over and over again
So when they stare at me
I tell them
judge me …..,
Look at me ,
and tell me , what you think ,
Tell me is your way better ?
Tell me are you happier ?
Tell me are you satisfied?
Tell me are you full of light ?
Tell me are you confident ?
Tell me do you have assurance ?
Tell me do you know where you’re going ?
Tell me if you lost it all
All that you hold so dear
The money, the job,
the family you have near ,
Could you still smile ?
Could you still be at peace ?
I may have nothing on earth
but if I endure ,
I’ll have riches, mercy,
Yashaya and The Father
waiting for me. 🖤
Really think about it , …
Could you be like me ,
the girl who didn’t lose ,
but lost every thing 🖤
Knowing in heaven , I’m winning 🖤